Have you ever felt helpless once in your life? Have you ever cried over a disease that requires immediate operation? Have you ever felt like a candle melting gradually right before your very eyes?
I have felt them all. It was only recently that I discovered I have a thyroid nodule. After a series of laboratory tests, the doctor said that I needed to undergo operation within three months since a hurtle cell feature was identified in the biopsy. A hurtle cell is an indiscriminate cell which may either be benign or malignant. To be certain about its identity, the nodule needs to be extracted wholly for biopsy.
That very moment upon hearing my doctor's advice, I couldn't control the tears welling from my eyes. I dread the time when a surgeon will open my neck and remove the solid mass in my thyroid. I have a lot of doubts. What if the doctor commits an error and some healthy tissues or cells get removed too along with the nodule which may cause my paralysis for life? What if because of the doctor's clumsiness, my voice box, larynx, gets affected which may further result in my loss of voice?
These doubts I couldn't get rid off in my mind. No matter what my doctor said it's safe and that I am in the best hospital in the Philippines, I couldn't convince myself to submit for operation.
Now, I am really thankful to God that I was given another option. I will have four months of medication and hopefully within this period, my nodule will become smaller so that it will not be removed by surgery.
With a lot of miracles happening around, I firmly believe God will create a miracle in my life. I know He will heal me of my thyroid in His time. Call it mysticism, but I choose to believe for I know with God nothing is impossible.
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